Chapter 1: A beginning[/b]
It started out like any other Friday night. Kristine had planned to go to one of the local clubs with her roommate Mary when a surprise visit from her long distance boyfriend left her with nothing to do. Mary and Jay went out for a quiet dinner alone, and Kris had little doubt that they’d be back to the apartment in no time. This was one of the times when she was most happy she wasn’t in college any longer - separate bedrooms were such a blessing! She remembered all to well the college years when she’d end up sleeping on the floor of one of the other dorm rooms instead of in her bed.
Kris looked around their relatively new apartment. They had just moved in two weeks ago, and had hardly any time together with which decorate the apartment. She flopped on the couch and looked at the high ceilings, cold and white like the rest of the apartment. It looked incredibly boring to her! Kris briefly thought about going out to the clubs alone, but knew that it was never a good idea in a new area without at least knowing a few people there.
“Uggghhhh,” she said to no one in particular. “This is going to seriously suck.” She knew that Mary would appreciate it if she was in her room by the time Jay and her got back. After arguing with herself for a few minutes about whether to spend the night in her room for Mary or the common room for her sanity, she decided to be a good friend. “She definitely owes me,” she mumbled as she grabbed a piece of cake and a glass of milk as she headed to her room.
It took her all of about ten seconds of her sitting on her bed for her to switch on her laptop. It flipped on and caused a soft blue light to envelop the room until Kris got around to hitting the light switch. She put on her pj’s while she was waiting, a nice silk set that she last year for Christmas. She dove onto her queen-size bed, and thanks to her silk pj’s, slid all the way over to where her laptop was resting at the end of the bed. As she settled in and took a quick bit of her cake, she saw her IM programs connect. She couldn’t believe that there was nobody on! (Well, no one she wanted to talk to anyway)
“I guess I’m the odd one out tonight,” she said. She clicked on Netscape and waited for her homepage to load up. She did her usual routine for the next hour, checking her email and visiting her regular message boards. She posted a few messages and updated her journal, and soon found herself playing on google. Kris always did love the ‘do you feel lucky’ button there. She stretched out her legs and thought of a fun search for the night. “Let’s see if I can dig up a social life out here…”, she said to herself, and typed in ‘young play in Sterling Virginia’.
The search went through in a few seconds, and Kris was surprised to see herself on a warning page. She did a quick browse of the warning (this page contains yadda, yadda), and quickly clicked the over 18 button. The first thing she noticed was the cartoon wallpaper on the website, quickly followed by the table of contents. She shook her head to make sure she was seeing right. Diaper stories? Diaper pics? Where to buy diapers?
She started to click the close button, but just for curiosities sake, she clicked on a few of the links. She skipped past just about everything, giving it a quick look… until she came to the picture section. She stopped dead and just stared at the picture… a grown woman, maybe in her 20’s, wearing a thick diaper over her middle and a button down blouse covering her chest. She was laying on her bed and had a soft smile on her lips as she rested against a pillow. She held a soft-looking brown teddy bear in one arm. Kris felt such a pull to the picture and couldn’t explain why. She kept looking at it over and over again, even as she started giving a more serious look to the rest of the site.
Kris shook her head again. “Why am I still looking at this?”, she thought to herself. She started to click the close button when she noticed one of the last links. “Hmm, a quick email to say hi shouldn’t hurt… just want to see what it’s like, that’s all.” Kris clicked the link and started to write a quick email to ‘Court_Ab@hotmail.com’ She couldn’t think of much to really say besides I liked your website, so ended it after a few lines. Once she clicked send, she heard the door to the apartment start to open. Kris quickly clicked the close button on her browser and felt herself blush slightly.
Kris quickly glanced at the clock and figured it was time to get some rest. She closed her laptop and slipped under the covers, enjoying the feeling as her head came to rest on her soft pillows. She felt her eyes start to close, but kept feeling herself drift back to the image on the website… was the diaper soft? Did it feel weird to wear? Does she wet them? Questions kept drifting in and out as she kept wondering to herself why she was thinking about this so much…
Chapter 2: Wandering Thoughts
Kris awoke with a start and quickly opened her laptop, wondering if she had a reply to her email. To her disappointment, her inbox didn’t have any new messages. “Oh well,” she thought. “I guess it is pretty soon.” Kris shrugged and laid back down and curled up in the blanket as she thought about that website again. After a few seconds of wondering, she clicked on Netscape and headed to the site again. She wasn’t as obsessed with the picture this morning (she only looked it five times this morning), and spent a bit of time looking at all the different types on the product page. She couldn’t believe there were so many kinds of diapers. All she had ever though about were Depends, and only old people used those! She rolled her eyes and closed the window as she headed for her morning shower.
On the way, she heard Mary and Jay in the kitchen, probably getting ready for breakfast. Mary must have heard Kris also, since a few seconds later she heard a knock on her door.
“Good morning Kris. We’re making pancakes if you’d like some.” Mary called through the door. Kris was happy she decided not to open the door since she was half undressed for her shower.
“That would be great Mary, I’m starved. Give me a few minutes to shower and get cleaned up?”
“No problem. When Jay cooks, it’s always at least an hour long project. And cleaning up is a two hour one.” Mary giggled. Kris heard something hit the wall next to her, and wondered what kind of food was thrown at Mary for her commentary.
“Okay, I’ll be out in a few then. Thanks Mary!” Kris said as she headed into the bathroom. She was happy that she had an excuse to take a quick shower instead of her usual routine of fourty-five minutes. She turned on the water and finished taking off her pj’s as she waited for the water to warm up. She looked at herself in the bathroom mirror as she waited. She usually liked what she saw, outside of slightly tiny breasts. She had a nice curve to her body, with a narrow waist and nice hips. She also had very smooth skin with only a few freckles, the product of being a relentless moisturizer and a generally indoor person. Her brown hair was combed back for bed, and tumbled down in a mess of loose tangles to her shoulders. She started to see steam creeping up the mirror, and knew the shower was finally warm. She gave herself one last look though, and pictured what she would look like wearing a diaper like the picture of the woman on the diaper site. She blinked a few times and wondered what she was doing. “Okay, maybe I should take a cold shower instead!” She said to her mirrored image.
Her shower was quick though, with a quick rinse of her hair and a quick body wash with her poof. She also used her facial soap, skipping most of her regular routine of skin care ‘potions’. She didn’t want to keep Mary waiting and forced herself to turn off the water instead of lingering to enjoy the warm water pouring down her body. She quickly dried herself off, and combed back her damp hair to keep it out of her face for a bit. She put the back in a quick bun to keep it off her neck as she ate. She walked back into her bedroom, and began rifling through her clothes for something to wear. She opened her underwear draw, and for some reason, opted for a thick pair of cotton panties instead of her usual. She generally wore more ‘sexy’ panties (you never know when they might be handy), but today was just in the mood for something a bit more comforting. She put on the matching bra, along with a pair of black jogging pants and a white tank. She decided she was presentable enough after giving herself a quick look, and headed for the kitchen, laptop in hand.
The kitchen of the apartment was only a kitchen in name. It was big enough to hold two people, and was actually an add-on to the common room. It was placed in between the two bedrooms, at the back of the room. It was open to the room so that people sitting in the den could see the people in the kitchen. The counter that separated the common room and kitchen ended in a small bar, which Kris and Mary had lined with tall chairs. Kris placed her laptop on the edge of the couch in the room and opened it up before going over and sitting at the bar area.
Mary was right that Jay cooking was a project! It looked like food was thrown everywhere, pans were sizzling, and Kris wasn’t sure, but could have sworn she saw pancake batter stuck to the wall by the pantry. Mary and Jay looked like they were up to the their elbows in the mess, and Kris thought she saw a slight dusting of flour over just about everything. Kris laughed softly to herself as she looked at the happy couple. Mary was still in her pajamas, a white cotton set that she bought recently. It was sleeveless, with mini-roses placed all over it. Mary was a truly beautiful woman, with dark Italian skin that just always seemed to be the perfect blend of tan. She was a bit heavier then Kris, with a better defined ass and hips. Her chest was also more pronounced, something Kris was always jealous of. Mary loved her friends though, and was amazingly intelligent. She works as a chemist for the DEA, and loves it. She also had a knack to always hear the most horrible jokes though, and loved telling them!
“Morning guys. Thanks again for making breakfast!” Kris said. From Jay, she only got a few mumbles. It was obvious that breakfast wasn’t going as well as he had hoped. Mary was a little more social, probably enjoying the spectacle of her boyfriend cooking.
“Good Morning Kris. Want to hear the latest joke I heard?”
Kris laughed to herself, already imagining what she had come up with. “Sure, why not.” she said as she shook her head.
“Why is 77 better then 69?”
Kris shook her head again, and could already imagine the answer. “I have no idea.”
“You get 8 more, duh!” Mary said while laughing.
Kris turned bright red and looked at Jay while trying to stop the giggles from coming out. Mary’s laughter soon go to her though, and pretty soon, they were both laughing so hard that the tears were coming out. “That’s really a bad one.” Kris said. She could see Jay hang his head a little bit as he tried to stifle a laugh, having probably heard this one a few times!
Jay was a little harder to figure out then Mary. He was usually pretty quiet whenever he visited, but Mary assured that he was anything but. The two of them usually only have eyes for each other when they visit each other though, so I guess it wasn’t weird that he didn’t really spend any time talking to Kris. He was pretty tall, somewhere near the six-foot range, with deep brown eyes. He was pretty muscular also, and Kris was always amused when she watched him toss Mary up into his arms to carry her somewhere. Kris knew from the way that Mary looked at him that she loved him a lot. She smiled for her friends, and hoped that one day soon she’d be standing in a bridesmaid’s dress.
“So Jay, how cough is breakfast coming along?” Kris asked while trying not to smile.
“Any minute now.” he growled, while a piece of bacon fell off the fork he was using fell to the floor. “Grrrrrrr.”
Kris turned around for a second to look out of the common room window to check the weather, but instead her eyes stopped on her laptop. Her email icon was up, meaning that she received something. “Probably just another ad for Viagra,” she thought to herself as she rolled her eyes. She turned back around to talk to Mary, but her mind kept wandering back to her computer. When it drifted over there though, it was a short step to drifting back to that website too.
She shook her head as Mary laid out some plates and declared that breakfast was ready. Kris acted pretty ditzy during most of it, but fortunately Mary and Jay were occupied with seeing each other that they didn’t notice. Why did she keep thinking about diapers of all things? The pancakes and bacon were actually pretty good, but for the disaster in the kitchen, Kris expected a three course meal! She ate about half her breakfast, and quickly ran to the sink to clean off her plate and put it in the dishwasher.
“Geeze, an hour to cook and she eats it in under ten minutes!” Jay laughed.
“I’m sorry Jay, just a bit out of it today. I think I’m going to go get ready to go jogging to clear my head.”
“It’s okay, I understand,” he said with a wink.
“I’ll make it up to you though, and I’ll clean the kitchen up a little later. If I wait long enough, maybe it’ll be declared a federal disaster area!”
“Ha, ha, ha. Funnnnnnyyyy,” He said with a smile.
“Okay, guess I’ll see you guys later then. Have fun today, and thanks again!” Kris said with a wave as she grabbed her laptop and headed to her bedroom.
Chapter 3: Courage & Confidence
As soon as Kris cleared the door, she swung it shut and ran over to her bed to check her email. When the screen refreshed, she just stared. In the top of her box, an email from Court_Ab@hotmail.com. She stood looking at it for a few minutes, wondering if she should just delete it. Her heart was racing a little bit at the sight of the email. “Why go jogging when I have diaper thoughts to keep my heart rate up?” She mused. “Okay, it’s just an email, that’s all. You’re not into this or anything.”
Kris clicked on the email and looked over what Court had written:
Hi ya Kristine, thanks for saying you liked my website. I’m always looking for ways to improve it if you have any suggestions. What did you really like about it? I’m glad you wrote, and if you want to talk more, please write again. Or if you want, you can look me up on Aol IM under the name Court_AB.
Hope to hear from you,
Kris briefly eyed her IM screen and saw once again, no one was on. “Hmm, should I add him?” She wondered. She thought for a few minutes, and in the end, decided that it was just an IM conversation. It’s not like he’d know who she was! Kris reached over and added a new buddy to her list: Court_Ab. Kris saw as the name came online. After a few seconds of wondering if this was a good idea, she wrote a quick message to her new buddy.
“Hi there, this is Kris. I wrote you last night.”
After a few seconds, she got a message back. “Hi back. Thanks for compliment on my website. I’m really glad you liked it!” Court wrote back.
“Oh yes. I felt it was great… I have to admit, I was a little nervous when I first started looking at it.”
“Was this the first diaper-oriented site you’ve ever been to?” Court asked.
“Well, yes… I was just browsing last night and stumbled on it.”
“Oh, okay. What did you think?”
“Well, it’s… different. I just keep thinking about what I read, and loved the first picture you have up on the picture page.”
“Oh, thank you, me too! Have you ever tried a diaper or anything like that?”
“Well, no. But I’ve been thinking about it a lot today, and don’t know why,” Kris confessed.
“There’s nothing wrong with it at all. I know society says there is, but what’s wrong with feeling comforted once in a while?”
“Nothing, I guess.” Kris answered
“So why don’t you try it and see? What would it really hurt?”
“No, I couldn’t… I’d look silly! Besides, I don’t have any.”
“I’m sure you’d look great in them. And it’s not hard to get them. You can at any drugstore, and even supermarkets.”
“Oh no, I could never. What would people think?”
“Does it really matter? Have some self-confidence and not worry about it if you’re curious. From what you’ve said so far, I bet you’d enjoy it!” Court typed.
“Well, I just couldn’t… I’d be too embarrassed.”
“You’ve never bought panty liners before?”
“Well, yes, but that’s different.” Kris said after thinking for a second.
“I don’t know, they’re more normal! Women buy them all the time, but we don’t buy diapers.”
“Well, I think you can do it if you’re really curious. Just go early in the day or late when the stores are empty, and just close your eyes, breathe, and go for it!” Court answered.
“Why do you like them?” Kris asked curiously.
“Because I feel at peace in them and I can relax. It’s just me with no worries, not even if I have to go to the bathroom! I can act silly if I want, or play if I want to, and just remember what it was like to be so care-free. I also love sleeping in one, it’s just so comforting being curled up with a thick diaper between your legs keeping you safe. I guess I like to share that with other people.”
“That sounds nice.” Kris answered thoughtfully.
“It is. You should think about it. Remember, just takes a little courage and a little confidence to wear diapers!”
“I’ll remember that. I have to get going… I’m already late for my morning run. Talk to you later?”
“I’d like that, and remember, I’m here if you want to ask me any questions or anything like that, and please come back to my website any time you want.”
“Thanks, I will. Have a good day.” Kris said.
“hugs Good luck!” Court said as he signed off.
Good luck with what, Kris wanted to ask. Court’s take on things had Kris smiling during the conversation. Was it really possible? Wouldn’t she be a freak for doing something like this? What if she got caught? And worst of all: What if she liked it?
Courage and confidence.
Chapter 4: Questions and Answers
Kris left the apartment feeling a little overwhelmed by all of these new, and slightly upsetting, emotions. She broke out of the apartment at a dead sprint, running as quick as she could down the paved sidewalk. As she drifted over the streets and passed the other buildings, she kept thinking about everything Court had said. He seemed so ‘okay’ with everything abut himself, and seemed so nice. Her thoughts drifted to Mary, and realized that Jay and Mary were going to be out of the apartment for most, if not all of the day as they try to squeeze in a month of seeing each other into one day. The more she thought about it, the more safe everything seemed. Mary was out, she didn’t really know anyone here yet, so what was the difference?
She turned the corner by an elementary school on her regular circuit. There was a CVS she knew about pretty close the apartment, only a block or two away. It wouldn’t be that big a deal to buy some diapers, would it? “God, I’m over-thinking this way to much,” She said to no one in particular. The phrase ‘Just do it’ kept popping in her head. “Okay, that’s it, I’m a grown woman, I can manage this.”
Kris turned down the next block to start heading over that way. She slowed down a bit to catch her breath and cool down a bit. She could see the drugstore up ahead on the left side of the street, but the closer she got, the slower she ran, until she was eventually doing a slow walk. She could feel her heart racing as she looked at the store and kept trying to think of an excuse to stop from going in. After what seemed an eternity, and Kris thinking things over a few dozen times, she followed an older woman into the store.
Kris quickly learned that her plan of walk in, buy diapers, and walk out wasn’t nearly as easy as she expected it to be. She kept feeling her face warm up as she thought it over, and spent a good bit of time looking at the cosmetics they had. She tried a few different foundations and a lightly shaded blush to make it look like she was in the store for other reasons. She knew that eventually she would have to go over to the diaper section if she was ever going to manage to work up the confidence to buy some though.
After wandering around the aisles for a few more minutes, she finally came to the back of the store, where she saw a section labeled ‘Women’s needs/Incontinence’. She walked down the aisle slowly, feeling herself get a little more light-headed with every step. The aisle was almost completely taken up with female products, and took going to the very back corner of the store to find the section for adult incontinence. She looked at the products briefly before looking away, not wanting to get caught looking at diapers as an adult. She looked down the row of products and didn’t see anyone coming, so decided that she could afford a bit of a better look then that. She knelt down to look at a package of Depends undergarments, with nighttime protection. She read the package, turning it over and over again and wondering why she was so curious about it. She could feel them inside, and how thick them seemed. She felt the desire in her rise a little bit as she held tightly onto the package, almost as if someone would take it away from her. She started to think about buying them, and was pretty happy to see the store relatively empty.
As she turned around to walk to the counter, she saw the lady she followed into the store turn the corner and head down the row of products. She had a cart with a few items in it, including a small pile of Halloween candy. She gave a start at seeing Kris holding the package of depends, but kept walking towards where she was standing.
The woman was in her mid forties, with hair that was deep brown and tied back in a pony tail. She was wearing a pair of simple glasses over her blue eyes that gave her a look of authority. As she came closer, Kris noticed her height. She was easily 5’8", a giant next to Kris’s 5’5". She could feel her skin starting to heat up from embarrassment as the woman walked towards her. She packaged slipped from her grasp as she felt a her hands start to turn slick with worry. Kris knelt down to pick up the diapers, and quickly slipped them on to the shelf, hoping to avoid any more humiliation. “What am I doing,” she said out loud so the other woman could hear, “I thought these were pads.” She finished with a weak smile as she started to turn back towards the front of the store.
The woman gave her a quick look up and down and broke out in a sly smile. “Your first time buying incontinence products, huh?”
Kris attempted to answer, feeling that half the store must have heard the woman’s announcement a second ago. All she could manage was a weak nod as she felt her forehead start to dampen from her nerves.
“Oh, it’s okay sweetie, relax. I’ve been there too!” She said, her smile growing. “I’m Ellen by the way. I know it seems embarrassing your first time buying protection, but it gets easier, and nothing to be ashamed about. I’ve been wearing diapers for about five years now, and think I’m pretty past the ‘shock’ value!”
Kris still felt a bit ashamed that Ellen was talking to her about diapers when she needed them, while Kris was buying them to see what they felt like. Ellen had a magnetic personality though, Kris could tell that already by how she carried herself. She was so comfortable with herself and who she was. Kris felt herself relaxing a bit while looking into the warm smile Ellen gave her. “Thanks, I never imagined it would be this hard,” She stumbled out.
"I know, few people do until they go through it. Is there anything I can help you with?
“I don’t think so, but thanks anyway. I think I’m just going to go,” Kris said as she turned to walk past Ellen.
Ellen laid a hand on her shoulder though and looked into her eyes. “It’ll be okay, trust me. Maybe I can make it a bit easier on you then it was on me!” She took Kris’s hand and led her back to the adult diaper section. “Well, first off, I think you’re a little too small for large! You’d have to used duct tape to hold them up. I see you also picked nighttime protection, so I’m guessing this is more of a nighttime issue?”
Kris went to answer but found that she just couldn’t talk about it. She looked up into Ellen’s eyes, and after a second, felt Ellen squeeze her hand in a way that made Kris feel at peace with what she was doing. She felt Ellen’s acceptance through that brief squeeze. “Well, yes. I just want to make sure that I can sleep through the night without a problem.” Kris said as she lowered her head, slightly ashamed of the small lie she told.
“Okay, so that was a good choice. Depends is a pretty good brand, but always found the Attends to be a generally better product, and if you’re using them for night time use only, I definitely recommend them.” Ellen answered. She kept hold of Kris as she pointed out her choice products.
Kris stared up at the display and at the wide selection. “Well, what size do you think I need?”
“Well, what size are you?”
“A four.” Kris stated proudly.
“Grrr, I’m jealous now!” Ellen laughed. She looked briefly at the selections and settled on a package of small. “Here you go, these are probably the best for your tiny waist.” Ellen handed the package to Kris and kept looking at the various products. After a few seconds, Kris watched her put a package of medium ‘regular’ diapers and a package of large nighttime diapers in the cart.
"Why the different sizes? Kris asked, amazed that she was actually asking a question about diapers to a grown woman in the middle of a drug store. Kris looked up nervously, hoping she didn’t offend Ellen.
Ellen gave another squeeze in answer to the unspoken question. “Well, at night, I like a little more room to sleep in, and if I think it’ll be a heavy night, I can put something in to make them more absorbent so my husband doesn’t end up wet along with me.” Ellen smiled like she was remembering a private moment.
Kris was starting to feel a little worried about lying to Ellen. Ellen was sharing the burden of a real issue with her, one that Kris really couldn’t relate to. She squeezed Ellen’s hand for a second before letting go, as a way to say I’m sorry, even if Ellen didn’t know what for. She looked at the package Ellen had handed to her for a few seconds and decided they were a good choice for her. “Thanks for your help Ellen, I really, really appreciate it.”
“Don’t think anything of it.” Ellen said.
Kris turned to walk down the aisle when Ellen gave a small giggle. “Here, put them in the cart with my things. There is another tip for you. If you want to avoid stares, sometimes it’s good to not being carrying adult diapers in plain sight.”
Kris couldn’t help it as she laughed. “I guess you’re right. I’m not very good at this at all! My name is Kris, I don’t think I mentioned it earlier,” Kris said as she held out a hand.
Ellen took her hand and shook it in greeting. “It’s a pleasure to meet you. Would you like my number in case you need anything else or want to talk or anything?”
Kris could tell that Ellen was enjoying having someone to share this with. She knew it was a bad idea, but felt such an attraction to her kindness that she quickly agreed. Ellen took a pen out of her purse and penned her name and phone number on the back of an old receipt.
“Thank you again Ellen.”
“Stop that, you don’t have to thank me. Like I said, we’ve all been there.” The two women started to head towards the cashier when Ellen stopped for a second. “Oh, btw, I meant to ask you. Since this is your first time, do you have everything else you need?”
Kris turned her head to the side as her eyebrows drew together, wondering what Ellen meant. “Well, I’m not sure. What else do I need?”
Ellen smiled again. “Well, baby powder for one if you want to keep your skin healthy, baby oil too. And I’d definitely recommend some kind of diaper rash cream. Trust me, they’re not fun when they happen!”
Kris shook her head. She hadn’t even thought of any of that stuff! “Okay, where do I get that?”
“You can here if you want to. I’ll show you if you want.”
“I’d like that, thank you.”
“Sure. I think it’s aisle 3 that has what we’re looking for.”
Kris would have expected the products to be near the incontinence section, but found Ellen leading her to the other side of the store. She turned down the aisle and was surprised to be greeted by rows and rows of baby diapers and baby supplies. She looked at all the things there, her thoughts going back to Court’s website and all she had seen there. She felt her knees go a little weak as she followed Ellen down the aisle.
“Okay, here we go. Johnson’s baby powder, baby oil, and diaper rash cream. You should actually put on a little of the rash cream whenever you go to bed to help prevent rashes from happening. That’s definitely the best way to deal with them,” Ellen said as she frowned. Kris definitely saw that she was speaking from experience. “Well, I think that’s everything you need to start out with. Can you think of anything else you might need?”
“You’re asking me? You already saw that I don’t have this all thought out yet.” Kris laughed. Her eyes kept drifting though, over to the other baby items. She looked at a larger baby bottle for a few seconds before moving on, afraid Ellen would notice her interest. They walked to the end of the aisle and to the cashiers, with Kris feeling a little loss at leaving the row of baby supplies. “Geeze, what is wrong with me today,” She said softly to herself.
“What was that?” Ellen asked
After a few seconds of waiting on line, the two women came up to the front and began unloading supplies. Kris felt her face heat again as the cashier began ringing up Ellen’s items. Ellen however looked calm and collected, as if nothing in the world was wrong. Kris admired that in her, and hoped she was right that it does get easier. She couldn’t imagine it, but hoped it was true… she couldn’t imagine that she’d have made it through this without Ellen helping her. It was soon Kris’s turn to be wrung up, and after a few seconds and no comments, laughter, or finger pointing, she paid the cashier and got her things. Ellen stopped her from taking them, asking the cashier to please double bag them. Kris noticed that Ellen’s were double bagged as well.
Ellen leaned over and whispered “So people that you don’t want to know won’t see what’s in the bags.” She gave a little wink to Kris, happy that she was able to share another secret of adult diapering.
“Thank you again Ellen. I can’t say that enough!” Kris said as she picked up her bag.
“Well, thank you for talking to me. I enjoyed meeting you.”
“Ditto that. Take care, and I’ll call you sometime.”
“Okay, and if not, we’ll always have the diaper aisle!” Ellen laughed.
“How true! Take care,” Kris said as she walked outside.
Chapter 5: First feelings
Kris broke into a dead run with her package as soon as she stepped out into the early morning sunlight. The short trip back was a blur, with Kris’s long legs carrying her over the pavement at a quick sprint. She bounded up the steps to her apartment, taking them two at a time, the package from CVS trailing behind. As she approached the door to her apartment she slowed down to catch her breath, and to make sure the coast was clear. She walked to the door and tried to open it, feeling relieved when she felt the deadbolt in place. With a sly, secretive smile, she slipped her key into the lock and tapped the door open with her foot. She threw the package on the ground as she slammed the door behind her and relocked the deadbolt, feeling safe for the first time since buying the package of diapers.
Once she did one last quick look for Mary and Jay, she picked up the bag and ran quietly into her room as she closed the door. She tossed the package by her bed as she rested against the back of her bedroom door. She took a few cleansing breaths as she tried to relax and keep her heart from jumping out her chest. Her eyes kept drifting to the package though, and soon she was kneeling on the floor, staring as if this was some lost treasure, the contents of which could be anything! She just kept looking at the wording on the package over and over again, imagining herself trying one of the diapers on, feeling her heart quicken a little.
“Okay, just trying this out to see what it feels like, no big deal. No one will ever know, and I’m sure I’ll wear it for a few minutes and get sick of it, and that’ll be the end of it,” She muttered to herself, trying to make it sound convincing. She looked at the package again, and slowly started to open the top. The sight of the white diapers lined up shook her for a second, as she touched the row to see what they felt like. The plastic outside crinkled as she ran her hand down the line, bringing a sense of giddiness to her. She slowly drew one out and started to open it, looking strangely at the blue stripe running in between the legs. As she opened it, she felt the elastic in the middle and the soft cotton in the middle, her eyes going wide at the sight of it unfolded.
She slowly drew her eyes away, and started looking at her other purchases. She opened the baby powder and was greeted with a small puff of it flying into the air. Kris breathed in the scent as it came up, feeling herself drift a little bit. She had always loved the smell of baby powder, and was happy to become lost in the fragrance. A smile crept across her face as she closed it, as the anticipation of using it started to build. Next came the baby oil, with Kris just glancing at it as she placed it on her nightstand. When she was younger, Kris used to rub baby oil into her skin all the time to keep it smooth, even though her older brothers used to make fun of her for it. She smiled at the memory as she went back to sit on the floor. “Silly boys,” she said to herself as she laughed. The last item was the diaper rash cream. Kris thought for a moment, and figured that she wouldn’t need that since she wasn’t really going to be using the diapers. She took the tube and tossed it into the small garbage can that sat in the corner of the room.
She turned her head back to the diaper, wondering if there was anything else she had to do. She slowly admitted to herself that she was trying to come up with excuses, putting off trying the diaper on for as long as she could. “Okay,” she started with a quick breathe, “try it on, feel silly, take it off, the end.” She picked it up off the floor and laid it on her bed. Kris tossed off her sneakers as she untied her jogging pants, and slowly shook them down her legs until she could step out of them. She put her hands on her hips and slowly trailed them down her body, pulling off the cotton underwear she had put on earlier. She sat on the edge of the bed and took off her socks, and tossed them into her laundry basket at the foot of her bed. She stood up and looked at herself in the mirror, stripped down to just her white tank top. She took a second to imagine what the diaper would feel like around her again, and then slowly headed to where the diaper was laying to really find out.
Kris looked at it briefly, wondering what she was supposed to do. She was the youngest child and had never diapered anyone before. She went over and slowly opened the diaper all the way, looking at the different parts to it. From looking at the package, she figured out the tapes had to go at the back when putting it on. She nodded to herself as if to confirm it, and after taking a deep breath, she slowly sat down in the middle of the diaper. She felt the front and back of the diaper start to come up as she sat in the middle of it, feeling it against her skin for the first time. She was also enthralled with the sound the diaper made when she moved, the crinkle bringing a slight smile to her face. The elastic felt a little strange rubbing against her inner thighs though, Kris wondering why they made it like that. She started drawing the front of the diaper up between her legs, and couldn’t believe the sensations she was feeling as she felt herself being diapered. When it was up to her stomach, she looked at herself and was amazed at the sight of the diaper covering her up. She reached behind and pulled up the back, and slowly, one by one, began fastening the tapes.
When the last one was taped, she rolled onto her back and moved around a little, feeling the diaper all around her. Kris noticed the warmth building up inside the diaper almost immediately, as she continued to roll around on her padded butt. “So that’s why babies get so grumpy in the summer sometimes,” she thought as she giggled to herself. The warmth felt amazing to her though, and noticed that other things were getting warm as well. She blushed when she realized it, trying to figure out how a diaper was turning her on. She rolled over onto her tummy, and almost jumped when she felt the diaper push against her sensitive areas. She lifted her hips for a second and came back down, enjoying the feeling as the diaper pressed against her. She was soon wiggling all over the bed, feeling the different ways the diaper touched her skin… along with other things. She rolled over again onto her back, and ran her hands over her face and hair, as if asking herself what she was doing.
She sat up and looked across the room at the mirror, and couldn’t believe the sight that greeted her. She looked like a child with a t-shirt and diaper on. She stood up and kept looking at herself, and felt so young, and so safe. She ran her hands along the diaper, feeling it around her, and felt herself day dreaming about what things were like when she was a baby. She put her arms around herself and gave a little squeeze, lost in memory for a little bit. She slowly wandered back over to her bed and pulled back the covers. She slipped in between the sheets and pulled the comforter back over and her and curled up, feeling exhausted all of the sudden. The diaper crinkled a little as she moved around, bringing a lazy smile to her face. She felt her eyes slowly start to close, as she pulled one of her pillows over to her and held it close to her, imagining for all the world that it was her teddy bear, her protector while she slept.