Re: The Trying Policy
Sally was already in the kitchen when Julie finally got there. She turned to her daughter and said, “I am going to make a sandwich, would you like one too?”
“Sure mom that would be great.” With that, Julie took a seat on one of the bar stools. The diaper made a loud noise as she sat.
“What do you want to drink?”
“How 'bout some OJ?”
“Sure thing. One OJ coming right up.”
Sally went to the cupboard and grabbed two large glasses and poured the OJ. Then she made up a couple of sandwiches and sat down to eat with her daughter. As she was eating she looked at her daughter. Julie had a short blue top on that left her diaper completely exposed. Sally took a look at the diaper and started to giggle. Her daughter actually looked surprisingly cute. Julie heard her mom giggling.
“What’s so funny mom?”
“Nothing honey, it’s just that you look so cute there in your diaper and all. I was not expecting that. I kind of thought you might look a little silly, but you actually look really cute.”
Lunch ended and Julie left to go watch some TV. Sally cleaned up the dishes and then started up a load of laundry. After getting the load started, Sally finished up the ironing she had and then transferred the clothes into the drier. She headed into the living room to see what Julie was up to.
Julie was lying on the couch. As usual she was on her stomach, with her legs bent at the knees and her feet hanging just over her rear end. The only difference today was that she had on a diaper instead of pants. Sally again had to repress the urge to giggle at how cute Julie looked. But this time, she came up and walked over to the couch and patted Julie on the bottom.
“How you doing kid?”
Julie was a bit startled when her mom touched her bottom, but with the diaper on, she could barely feel it.
“I am fine, why?” Julie asked.
Instead of answering, Sally put her hand back on Julie’s bottom. But she was certainly not patting it this time. Julie kind of jumped as her moms hand went down between her legs. Sally kept feeling Julie’s diaper and her hand was quickly well underneath her daughter. Julie wiggled away quickly.
“Mom, what are you doing?” Julie snapped in a voice that sounded like she though her mom must be crazy.
Sally quickly responded “I’m checking your diaper to see if I need to change you. Don’t act so surprised Julie, you need to get used to this!”
Julie thought for a second and then said, “Oh. Sorry, I didn’t mean to snap, it’s just that you caught me off guard. Besides, I’ll just let you know when I need to be changed.”
“Uh, no you won’t.” Sally added firmly. “Sorry, but it doesn’t work that way Julie. You don’t get to tell me or your dad when you need to be changed. People who are not potty trained don’t do that. You will be changed only when somebody checks your diaper and decides that you need to be changed. Now if you want to make a fuss about me checking your diaper I can do it less often. I just hope you understand what that might mean. If I were you I would want me to be checking you pretty regularly.”
Julie recognized her mom’s tone as that famous “I mean business” voice. But Julie felt a bit disturbed at this and went ahead and said,
“But mom, what happens if I need to be changed! I don’t want to sit around in a, um, dirty diaper.”
“Well Julie, I hate to break it to you, but over the next week, you are certainly going to have to do that at some point. I told you that you’re going to have to use these diapers for everything.”
“No I understand that part mom, but I mean what if I need to be changed? I can’t just tell you?”
“No Julie. Like I said, it doesn’t work that way. Now, I was planning on checking your diaper on a pretty regular basis, but if you are going to react like this every time I try….”
Julie saw that she needed to backtrack before things got worse than they already were.
“No. OK, look I’m sorry. I didn’t know it worked that way. If that is how it is, obviously I want you to check my diaper as often as you want. But I mean, what happens if I really need to be changed. I can’t come to you?” By the way Julie had said really, her mom understood what she meant.
“Look Julie. Rules are rules. You are not allowed to ask us to change your diapers. But relax honey, I understand what you are saying. I mean let’s be realistic here. If you really need to be changed, just walk into the same room as me or your father. We have noses, and if you really need to be changed, I think it will be pretty obvious.”
Julie nodded her head in agreement.
“Now, are you going to let me check your diaper or what?”
“No mom, go ahead.”
Sally came back over to Julie and started feeling her diaper again. It was obvious that Julie was still dry.
“Looks like you are fine. I’ll try to remember to check you before dinner. Now are you going to watch TV all day, or do you have some other plans?”
“Well, I was thinking about going over to Becky’s house. She had something going on after school, but she might be home now. I am going to give her a call.”
Turned out that Becky was home. She had had to stay late at school for some kind of meeting with one of her teachers. Becky invited Julie to come over and hang out for a bit.
After she hung up the phone, Julie wondered what she would do. There was obviously no way she was going to walk over to Becky’s house without putting on some more clothes. She decided to go talk with her mom.
Sally was in the living room reading some magazine.
“Mom, Becky is home and she wants me to come over.”
“That’s fine. Just be back for dinner at like 7:00 OK?”
Julie looked at the clock. It was still a little bit before 4:30. “OK, no problem. But mom, can’t I put my pants back on? I mean, I can’t really leave the house like this.”
Sally had not bothered to put down the magazine until now. As she did she took a look at her daughter and nodded slowly.
“No, I wouldn’t want to leave the house like that either. Yes, yes of course. Go put your pants on and I will see you before dinner.”
Becky Oakman lived just down the street, so it only took 5 minutes to walk there. Becky and Julie had been friends since the first day of kindergarten when they met. Since then, their families had become good friends and often did things together. Becky and Julie had done the same summer camps and activities together for many years now. They were, of course, best friends.
During the walk over, Julie noticed that her diaper made a lot less noise with her pants on, but it still made some noise. She began to worry that Becky might hear it and ask what was going on. She tried to think of what she might say, but she didn’t have much time to think about it before she arrived.
Julie had long since stopped knocking on the Oakman’s door, so when she got there she just let herself in.
“Becky?” Julie called out.
“I am in my room.” came a voice from down the hall.
Julie headed down to Becky’s room and walked in. Becky was at her desk and had the stereo on. Julie said a silent thank you that the music would cover up any sound her diaper might make.
The two girls sat down and did what they normally did, talk. They talked about boys. They talked about girls and which girls were with which boys. When they ran out of boys to discuss they went to watch some TV in the living room. On the way there, Julie certainly noticed her diaper making some noise. She kept an eye on Becky to see if she noticed anything. Just before they got to the living room Becky turned and looked at Julie’s pants.
“Hey wait a second.” said Becky.
Julie stopped dead in her tracks. She must have heard!
“Are those new pants or something?”
“No, not at all. Why?” Julie slowly asked.
Becky and Julie were pretty much the same size, and had been for years. They didn’t swap clothes on a regular basis, they both agreed it wasn’t a great idea to co-mingle clother, but on rare occasions it certainly happened. And they spent enough time together that they pretty much knew each other’s wardrobe as well as they knew their own.
“I don’t know, they must just look different or something. I was gonna ask when you went shopping without me.” Becky paused and looked hard at Julie’s bottom. “Hmm, whatever I think our show is on.”
Julie let out a sigh of relief. She had dodged a bullet there.
They watched TV for a while. Becky got up and grabbed a drink for the two of them during one of the commercials. During the next commercial Becky went to the bathroom. It wasn’t until Becky went that Julie realized that she needed to pee too. She almost started to get up and go to the bathroom too, but remembered her situation before she actually started moving. With that realization her stomach filled with butterflies.
Up to this point, Julie had never really given a whole lot of thought to the idea of using her diapers. In her dreams and thoughts, all she ever imagined was wearing a diaper, not using it. And although she didn’t like to admit it, she was a bit concerned about it. When her mom had laid down the rules, Julie had intentionally not thought about the part that said she had to use her diapers. ‘We’ll cross that bridge when we get there’ she remembered thinking. Well that bridge now lay before her and the time to cross it had come.
Julie knew what had to happen, but it was difficult to imagine. She started thinking about all the things that could go wrong. Would Becky be able to smell something? What if she leaked? Her instincts told her to just hold it, but Julie realized that it made no sense to try to do that. ‘Hold it until when?’ Julie realized ‘I can’t put this off for very long and I am going to have to do it eventually’ she thought. ‘What’s the point in waiting?’
So Julie made up her mind to not bother trying to hold back. ‘I’ll just ignore it and let things take care of themselves.’ she told herself. So she tried to relax and just let things happen on their own. After a few minutes nothing had happened. She realized that sitting on the couch made it hard. Pretty soon Julie really needed to pee. She decided she better do something different, so she actually tried to make things happen, but that didn’t work either.
Julie started getting desperate. She had not gone since school and the pressure was actually starting to become uncomfortable. Julie had never had the biggest bladder to being with. She looked at the clock and saw that it was 6:30. Julie was starting to get desperate. She decided that maybe heading for home was the best idea.
“Hey Becky, I gotta get back home for dinner. I’ll see you tomorrow.” she said suddenly as she stood up.
“Oh. I thought you weren’t eating until like 7? Whatever, just call me later tonight. I have to ask you something about our math homework.” said Becky.
“Sure, I’ll call you after dinner or something.”
Julie walked to the door and let herself out. She had barely made it to the street before she realized her body was telling her it was time to pee, now. She instinctively tried to hold back. ‘Let me just make it home’ she thought to herself, briefly forgetting about her diapers.
About half way home Julie remembered that she was wearing a diaper. ‘What am I doing?’ Julie asked herself. ‘Why I am waiting until I get home? What’s the point? I have to do this and here or there doesn’t make any difference. Besides I guess I need to start getting used to just going’. So Julie stopped walking and let out a long sigh. Once she relaxed, her body took over and started to go.
Julie had no idea what to expect, but as soon as things started she was fascinated. It wasn’t an out of body experience or anything, but Julie did feel a bit surreal and detached from herself and everything seemed to go quite. Her diaper started to get really warm and she felt the warmth slowly spread between her legs and over her diaper. She sensed a small puddle of wetness right between her legs. She had really needed to go, so Julie stood there and let herself finish. After she stopped, she sensed the warmth continue to spread over a larger area of the diaper. The small puddle of liquid disappeared as it was absorbed into the diaper.
The detached sensation started to fade and Julie became fully aware that she was standing on a side walk just as she had been a moment before. ‘That wasn’t so bad I guess.’ Julie told herself after a minute or so. ‘I guess I can handle that, which is a good thing, seeing how I have a week of that to look forward to.’ Julie looked down at her pants to see if there were any wet spots, but there weren’t. She ran her hands over her backside to double check, but didn’t feel any wet spots. She noticed that while the diaper still felt warm, it seemed to get drier by the minute. Julie decided that wetting her pants wasn’t going to be as big of a deal as she had feared just a couple of minutes ago.
She started walking again. Her diaper did feel noticeably heavier and it seemed to have expanded and become even bulkier between her legs. By the time she got home, the diaper felt almost the same as when it was dry, just warmer and bigger.
When she walked in the front door her, she saw her mom in the kitchen getting dinner ready. She knew Dad was home because she had seen his car in the driveway, but he wasn’t in the kitchen. Julie said hello to her mom.
“Hey Julie. Your back a bit early, dinner won’t be ready for another half hour or so.”
“I know.” said Julie. She almost started to say that she came home early because she had to go the bathroom, but then she remembered what her mom had said earlier. She knew she needed to be changed but she didn’t want to ask because she knew what that meant.
Luckily for Julie, Sally was a smart one. She thought for a second, ‘why would Julie come home early’ and quickly put two and two together.
“Well, I just need to do a couple more things and then dinner will just need to cook for a bit. Why don’t you take your pants off again, so I can check your diaper?” Sally said in a very matter of fact tone.
Julie couldn’t believe how her mom could say something like that like it was no big deal. It had barely been a few hours and already her mom talked about taking her pants off and checking her diaper like she did it every day. At the same time, Julie wasn’t about to object because she really did need to be changed. The sooner she took her pants off and her mom checked her, the sooner that would happen. So Julie headed off to her room. On the way there she heard her dad in the backyard mowing the grass.
When Julie got to her room she unbuttoned her pants and slid them off. She stepped over to her full length mirror and took a look at herself. The shirt she was wearing came down just below her belly button, which left her a full view of the diaper. Most of the diaper was still white, but the part between her legs had just a slight yellow tint that could be seen though the plastic lining. She turned around and looked at her bottom and saw that part of the diaper there was also wet. She turned back around and took a longer look at herself. Her mom had said she looked cute, but Julie wasn’t sure she totally agreed. Her slim waist and flat stomach looked fine, but the diaper made her rear look a lot bigger than it was. Still, from the front she didn’t look all that bad. She could see what her mom meant by cute too. She did look cute, just like somebody at Halloween dressed up like a baby. All she need were some pigtails and a pacifier. The big difference she told herself was that her diaper was not part of a costume, it was wet, and she was (hopefully) about to be changed into a dry one. She started feeling a bit silly staring at herself standing around in a wet diaper so she walked back to the kitchen.
Julie walked to the kitchen and watched as Sally put the lid on a large pot and wiped off her hands. Sally turned and saw that Julie was on the other side of the counter, standing and looking at her. She walked over to the other side of the counter and looked at her daughter.
“Oh good, you took your pants off already. Now let’s see how you’re doing.” And with that she placed her hand on Julie’s lower bottom and began feeling her diaper.
“Well, looks like somebody wet their diaper finally. Good.” Sally said as she looked at the front of her Julie’s diaper. “I’d say you are ready for a change. Let’s take care of that while the food is cooking.”
Julie wondered what her mom meant when she said ‘good’. So she asked.
“Well I was a bit worried that you might try to hold it too long or something since you were at Becky’s. You really don’t want to do that 'cause you can end up with a bladder infection or something. Plus if you hold back to long, and pee too much, your diaper might leak. Just do like you did, and make sure you go when you need to. Now let’s get you changed.”
‘I better remember that’ Julie told herself. The two of them walked back to Julie’s room. Julie walked up to the changing table and leaned against it.
“Don’t just stand there, hop up.” Sally said as she walked over.
Julie hopped onto the changing table and lay down. Sally leaned over and pushed the bottom of Julie’s shirt up a bit to keep it out of the way. Then she reached under the table and grabbed the box of wipes and a clean diaper. She set the box of wipes on the mattress and placed the diaper on Julie’s chest.
Julie started thinking to herself ‘well, this is going to be the first of many diaper changings. I guess I better get used to it’. She lay back and started looking around. Soon she began staring at the ceiling directly over her head and noticed the small glow-in-the-dark stars she had put up last year. It was the first time in a long time she had seen them without it being dark. She only sort of vaguely noticed her mom undoing her wet diaper.
Sally quickly began un-taping Julie’s diaper. Once it was untapped, she left it in place and grabbed the clean diaper from Julie’s chest. She noticed her daughter staring at the ceiling.
“What you looking at honey?” Sally asked as she opened the backside of the clean diaper. She grabbed Julie’s legs with one hand and lifted her bottom up. With her other hand she slid the clean diaper under Julie. This was a little trick she had remembered from Julie’s younger days, always put down a clean diaper before the dirty one came off.
“I was just looking at the stars on my ceiling. I hadn’t seen them in the light in a long time.” Julie said as her mom lifted her legs up again and removed her wet diaper. Her mom put her back down and left her uncovered.
“That’s funny.” Sally said as she rolled up the wet diaper and tossed it in the diaper pail. “You used to always stare at the ceiling when I changed you. But there were no stars back then.”
Sally opened the box of baby wipes and took out a couple. She started to wipe Julie’s bottom off but as soon as the wipe touched Julie’s skin, her daughter let out a gasp.
“Oh my gosh that’s cold!” Julie exclaimed as she looked at her mom with wide open eyes.
“Eww, sorry about that. Let me warm it up on your calf, its not nearly as sensitive.” Five seconds later Sally started again. “Better?” she asked.
“Much better, yeah.” Julie said.
Sally quickly wiped Julie down. She put the box of wipes away and took out the nursery cream. She began putting it on and Julie started laughing.
“Oh my gosh mom, it tickles even worse than before.” Julie squealed.
“Well, sorry but I am not stopping.” Sally said as she continued her work. “I assure you that you really want me to use this stuff. Try to hold still please.”
Julie did her best not to squirm, but it took real effort. Soon enough, her mom stopped and put the cream back on the shelf under the changing table. Then she grabbed the baby powder and sprinkled some on. Julie started looking at the stars on the ceiling again. Her mom set down the baby powder and then pulled the diaper up between Julie’s legs and spread it out over her lower tummy. She spread the front sides and then held it in place with one hand while the other hand grabbed the back of the diaper. Julie heard a loud tearing sound as her mom opened the tape and fastened down the left side of the diaper. Then she felt her mom gently pull the front of the diaper to the right. She heard the other tape open and felt the diaper tighten around her as her mom pulled the side to the front and firmly taped it in place. With a quick motion Sally ran her fingers underneath the leg openings and along the sides to smooth out and bunches.
“How’s that feel?” Sally asked.
Julie immediately noticed how different it felt to be back in a dry diaper. This once seemed a bit more snug then last time, which made it feel even better.
“Perfect mom,” Julie said as she glanced down at the white diaper between her legs. “It seems to feel a tiny bit better actually. Like it fits better than the last one or something.”
“Well, I am a little out of practice when it comes to diapering you, so I am not surprised to hear that. But it’s starting to come back. By tomorrow and I imagine this will become routine for me again. Well, you’re all set. I need to get back to the kitchen and make sure nothing is burning. Why don’t you come down and set the table for me?”
“Sure mom.” Julie remarked as she hopped down from the changing table. Sally had just about made it to the door when Julie asked her a question.
“Mom, can I put my pants back on now? Or do I have to go around in just a diaper still?”
Sally looked at her daughter and paused to think.
“Well honey, part of it is that I need to remember to check your diaper and seeing it really helps. And honestly it’s really hard to check your diaper when you are wearing pants. They are too tight to really be able to check you like I need to and you can’t take them on and off easily, so I’d really prefer it if you didn’t wear them.”
“Well, what if I wear something like some boxers?” Julie suggested “They are loose and stretchy enough that it shouldn’t be a problem to check me. And if you need to take them off it only takes a second.”
“That’s not a bad idea honey.” Sally stopped and thought for a second. “Tell you what, for the time being let’s stick with just diapers. Give me a day or two to get used to you being in diapers again and having to check you and then we can see about some boxers. OK?”
Julie let out a sign. It was better then nothing. “OK.”
Julie’s diaper crinkled loudly as the two of them walked back to the kitchen. Julie started to set the table as her mom checked on the progress of dinner. By the time Julie finished setting the table, Ted had finished mowing the lawn and came back inside. Julie started to get a bit nervous. She suddenly felt extremely self conscious about wearing just a diaper. What would her dad say?