“Stop fidgeting and pay attention!”
The speaker was a senior director, annoyed that I was squirming in my seat. I couldn’t help it, I needed the toilet and they’d dropped this meeting on me at the last moment. Sure, I had a diaper on but I wasn’t planning on using it, didn’t want to disrespect my colleagues like that, even over a video conference that stopped them seeing, hearing or especially smelling anything.
“Yeah, it’s like you’re doing a potty dance,” mocked one of my peers. Several others laughed, even the ones on mute visibly smirking and showing signs of amusement.
I was already in discomfort, annoyed and fed up. “Fine,” I said, “You want me to stop squirming like I need the toilet, I’ll deal with it.”
I stood up, turned around and bent over. Even before I lifted my skirt I could hear the gasps of shock. As the skirt rose above my thighs and started to reveal my diaper the sounds got louder, some people calling for me to stop, one sad individual yelling to their husband to “Oh my goodness, come and look at this!”
Holding my skirt clear I tensed my stomach muscles and started to push. My need was sufficient that it had an immediate effect, and one that I was sure would be visible.
The sounds from the laptop behind me told me it was visible.
“Everybody please disconnect,” I heard the director say, “We’ll reconvene tomorrow.”
I heard people departing, turned and saw the last few go. Just the director and myself left, so I pulled my seat up and sat down.
The director could see the grimace as I felt the diaper and its contents beneath me. I looked into the camera and shrugged. “I can sit still now.”
The response was a soft sad shake of the head. “Yes, you can. You’re clearly struggling so sit tight and I’ll come and give you a much needed change. Do I need to pick up more diapers on the way or do you have spares?”
I just looked in shock, glanced over at the stack on the shelf to my side. “I… I have some already.”
“Good girl. Sit there, and I’ll see you in 40 minutes.”
I sat there in shock. Of all the outcomes I’d anticipated this wasn’t one of them. It was a long forty minutes…